15 October 2011

Harapan please jangan berputus asa.

Mata napa malam ni awak tak nak pejam ,
Fikiran napa malam ni awak terlalu semak ,
Hati napa malam ni awak sayu ,
Fatin napa awak tanya soalan yang sama even dah tahu takkan ada jawapan :)

Lately banyak menda jadi , banyak menda yang difikirkan .
Bila la otak ini kan berhenti berfikir (jawapan : bila sudah mati)
Aiyak napa tanya soalan ngok ngek ag ..

Baru-baru ini da one thing happen to me .
Saya disyaki da BREAST CANCER . (malu nak gitau)
Yes Im scared hell enough , yes I know the risk of dying and yes I know Im not strong enough to accept it and get through it~
Hanye beberapa orang yang tahu pasal ini.
Its not something that I can proud with.
If Im dying better I go with silent without menyusahkan sapa-sapa.
SORRY saya tak nak simpati dari sapa-sapa.

1st pegi klinik doing medical check up , then my case proceed to HOSPITAL .
Still not telling anyone ,act normal still playing badminton n others heee~

2nd Go HKL , seeing doctor, make another appointment. Doctor nak amek sample of it . Damn it scared the hell of me. Tuhan saja tahu ,Plus the doctor is MAN , even he an expert i still have MALU to show him lor~
Got no choice , sakit or malu?? choose la hahah..

3rd Go HKL again ~ Doctor wat 2nd check this time another doc pon ada. MEN also + MALAY waaa.. got no choice.

Got result , ALHAMDULILLAH  its called Lumps and not danger or gonna effect me at all.
so I was discharge from HKL.

After several of month i keep this now I can breath easily ,rasa ringan sangat beban bila Doc cakap I considered FINE , to others girl if U have any doubt dun take it for granted go and check, its whether your life or your attitude which dun care at all. Better make an act before its to late. Believe me :)



P/s : TQ tuhan sebab masih berikan saya peluang untuk melihat dunia.



(2) SISTER WEDDING !
Coming soon waa..
To tell you the truth actually Im not ready to let my sis go..
Damn nanti dengan sapa saya nak gaduh :(
What to do dah sampai seru sampai bila saya nak jadi beban dia kan~
I dun have much siblings.
Only sis and me.
After my sis kawen mesti all the attention will be on me pulak from my parent.
OK , I dun really like it honestly ,tindak tanduk ku pasti akan diperhatikan..waaaa..

My sis ask me to do favor, make her wedding card.
Dear sis napa berat sangat permintaan tu , tak da yang berat lagi ka hadoyai~
Im not gud at it.
Sucks sangat kowt , hope ur weeding card turn out to be nicely.
If buruk ampun~ hahahah..

Ni da pict photoshot sikit2 still on picking untuk decide mana nk guna .

P/s : Sorry buruk , tangan gua bukan tangan pro mali , tapi tangan bidan terjun ja hahaha~






sekian : 4.30 a.m 
            16/10/2011

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

urmmm..=(...i don't wanna be alone...

Opera Hidup said...

you won`t my dear :)