i think im lost

juz nk share something .

dat day aku ondway balik ke s.alm.

dh la weekend ,nek ktm lak sumpah padat.

did i have a choice??

non ado..so aku masuk je la even brhimpit.

dgn 2 beg. (beg galas n beg lappy)

bertahan je la smentara nk smpai ke destinasi aku berdiri even dh mule peluh d dahi n ketiak ku.

each station da manusia yg trun da yg naik.

tggal lg 3 station aku akn smpai matlamat ku yeay!!

dlm kesesakan ramai tu da 1 family india which is i think india modern.

speaking to each other n their cloth are well nice.

1 mum , 2 little gal n 1 boi.

seems there very apy.

then my eyes did caught someone who watch the family without a blink at all.

yer..

owg yg dr td perhatikan family ni adalah seorang BAPUK INDIA yg memakai sari n brmake up.

aku curi2 tgk pndangan bapuk india itu.

die memerhatikan gelagat ank2 india itu bermain dgn kyushuk

sometimes he did smile n laugh sowg2 d corner sudut penumpang ktm neh.

wktu tu dlm pkiran aku hnya muncul 2 soalan.

"apy kah die dgn idup die sbgai seowg bapuk dgn melepaskan hak die sbgai seorg laki dan mempunyai family sndiri?"

"menyesalkah die dgn pilihan yg die buat dlm idup die ini"

aku trus main2 dgn soalan megog tu smpai la aku dgr operator ckp

"padang jawa" maksudnye aku kne berambus dr coach tren tu.

" MUDAH UTK MEMULAKN SSUATU PEHUBUNGAN"

"TP SUSAH UTK MPERTAHANKANYA"

xsemua yg kite nk kite Kn dpt kan?

tp is it worth 2 fight for?

how limit are u willing to take?

for me, EFFORT.

i dun care if it worth o not.

limit?yes sometime i cannot take it anymore but i still hoping.

fwen?lover?family?

which more important?

i need all diz three to complete my smile.

so i decide i will hang on.

fight for diz coz this three are damn important for me.

lost 1 ,i still have two but it will not be the same.

im giving 100% u know i will.

but if god say NO!

then there nothing i can do i guess.

yes saying is easy ,

u juz shut up and watch me do it.

HOLD ON TO US

and in the end, when life has got you down,

you've got someone here that you can wrap your arms around.

So hold on to me tight,

hold on to me damn it,.

We are stronger here together,

than we could ever be alone.

So hold on to me,

don't you ever let me go.

There's a thousand ways for things to fall apart,

but it's no ones fault, no it's not my fault. 

Maybe all the plans we made might not work out,

but I have no doubt, even though it's hard to see. 

I've got faith in us, and I believe in you and me.

So hold on to me tight.

Hold on, I promise it will be alright. 

Cuz it's you and me together,

and baby all we've got is time. 

So hold on to me,

hold on to me tonight.

I hold on because I won't let go

Even though I know there's solitude below

I hold on because I can’t' let go

I refuse to let the hands of fate unfold 

I hold on

ari raya tahun ni mcm biasa.

mlm raya make up umah nenek d kedah. (sampai bebal aku wt keje)

pg solat raya n g kubur.

sementara tggu abeh sbyg jumaat aku da terlelap tp d kejutkan dgn bunyi tepon.

tgk skrin " umy calling"

 

"hello"

"hello aten kt mne?kmai dtg umah umy skunk!"

"jpg la umy, den bru bgn tido neh.. (xsempat abeh ckp umy dh potong)

"br bgn tido??!ape nk jd dgn ank dara neh bru bgn."dh tgah ari ni oii"

"kojaq,kami dh g sbyg raya td.trtido la (jwb dlm mamai)

" sapa kata aten xp sbyg raya?"

"dh r umy kami nk p mandi"

"aten! awat xmandi lagi.ni pktam dh nk gerak sg n paktat dtg umah umy.xpa la depa mai dulu nnt aten dtg k?"

(dlm aty ceh nk tggal aku,xnk tggu aku)

"xpa la umy kami xp, xlarat ,letih" (majuk n ala2 nk sambung tido balik)

"ang jgn duk wt pagai. bgn p siap la.jpg umy cal gtau paktam n paktat.siap la!"

"ha la2"

p/s:sorry umy sbb wat pagai time mamai.

tq sbb sabo dgn karenah den slama neh huhu.

bahgia bila dpt sahabat sejati gini.

xlupe gak pada ros!! heee

pengajaran: baru g tiga umah pwot dh senkak,padat, n FULL.

                 tertido masa g raya umah owg td haish

                  lahanat gile sowg pon xgerak aku.. (rekod raya baru)